I suppose that, because I was institutionalised at an early age, I have strangely low expectations of enjoyment. New shoes! Clean underwear! Privacy! I still appreciate the freedom to do what I like sometimes, and if anyone pays me a compliment I'm absurdly pleased. Ridiculous! I just became accustomed to being told I was no good at CH.
I just never have blended in, Mary!
Why can't I walk away from lost cause situations? Normal people can.
I'd love to blend in, I really would, but I don't!